It's true that trying and failing is scarier than not trying at all. It is scary to risk turning something in my present into another past "What if" as it may be seen a few short years in the future. Not wanting to be stuck in a "What if" vortex, I am choosing to do something now, and changing the direction of my career. There, I said it, "career" not hobby. "What if I became a writer?" is going to be "What now can I do to become that writer?" It is time to take ownership of that "what if" because that time for me is now. Everything I did or didn't do before and what I do picture for my future only will make sense if I bridge that gap now with what I do today. I am ending tonight's post with the same paragraph I ended my message with in response to Dr. Bricker (yes, my classmate is a doctor on a ship!).
"You said it, life sure has its twists and turns. They still lead us to the lives we want, as long as we both believe and act on it."
I think it's high time I thank her.